Let me make something clear:
Enjoying things you like is NOT WASTING YOUR LIFE. Enjoying things is the exact opposite of wasting your life. I don’t care if what you like to do is stare at digital clocks or ceiling fans. Immersing yourself in your interests cannot be measured in value.
Forcing yourself to become a blank slate is torture. 0 out of 10 stars, would not recommend.
having responsibility when you’re already an anxious mess
do you ever find yourself getting less and less passionate about something you used to really enjoy because its the worst feeling in the world